it is the last day here at the high school, as a sophomore. The days will go quicker, the pressure gets stronger now, but I will always be me. And my life is a beautiful. And I can feel myself growing and changing. This world is what we make it an I will make it

"Happiness is when what you think, what you say, and what you do are in harmony."

I love this; it keeps me on my toes, keeps me where i want to be.

What would my life be like if i were four years closer to you...I want to know but

I won't ask you this question because i fear your answer.

Om Eim Hrim Klim Chamundayei Vicche Namaha

Mantra for self-confidence and protection.
My saving grace. Yoga is amazing, i am so thankful to have it as my outlet now, what a gift

alittle dash of whats going on

So much stress from school lately and i can feel it eating me alive, literally, my poor back is turning into a twisted jumble of stress and i havn't had enough extra time to read my book. I guess i could read at lunch, it wouldn't matter because i am always by myself at lunch anyways, but i can barely relax at school and my body does better, my mind can focus, when i am relaxed.
The best thing for me to do at this point is to remind myself how easy i have it..although i may feel swamped, people around me are too..so it's not all that bad. I also like to practice breathing deeply and sometimes doing some yoga helps me as well. Which is another thing i am so thrilled about-my mom made sure we could fit it into the budget, i am so thankful for my mom. She really know's what matters and what we can do without. Since i struggle with mybreathing, we've been able to find a place that i can go wednesday nights for yoga with a really lovely instructor, her name is diane. An older women with a class of all ages. I love love it.

And then it's hell week..
Group project, sophomore exhibition, and finals.
Why i can't stand group projects: tough when no one else wants to give an effort.
It's frustrating that i have a huge project due next Tues., which the teacher assigned on late notice, and the people-i had no choice but to team up with-are flakes.
It's something that gets under my skin more than most things..
Ugh. All i can say is these people are lucky to have a partner that is willing to get things done because she cares to do the very best she can.
Next time, they might not be so lucky..
I am sleeping at this computer..i'll write tomorrow..want to blog more...take more pictures...even if no one reads...(:...goodnight..

is this impossible? does it seem right to you like it does to me..

sometimes i feel this small. sometimes i feel this big.